The diary of a church girl.
*Disclaimer: I ain't one of those happy fruitsy miss sunshine Christians. If I got something on my mind I will say it (which is not always a good thing; but still I will say it)*
Don’t judge others or you too will be judged. In the same say and with the same measure of scrutiny. Matthew 7
#tweegram @missfancythreads @aimeegraphics @juanmarcos #righteous (Taken with instagram)
I like this. Righteousness is one size fits all. It really makes my blood boil when people are asked how/why they are Christians. “Well its a personal thing..but God told me to” They make it seem as if salvation/righteousness is a personal thing(like a trendy iphone case…each person has a different one according to their likes). I know every persons story of coming to the lord is different; but the prize is all the same. The gift of righteousness is the same.
OMG!!! Last night was just awesome…
You know how I kept referring to that video about God chiseling away all the imperfection; anything that is not reflective of Him has got to GO.
Well I believe last night I experienced a bit of that….
It funny cause I really had no intention of going (to this praise and worship thing). Its no lie; me and God haven’t been in sync. I was so mad with Him for such a long time (for the life of me I can’t even remember why I was angry… Imagine celebrating Easter mad at God; it seem so foolish now). In the last few weeks I have distance myself more away from him, cause I just didn’t feel like I could do it anymore. I just been finding comfort in the wrong thing (…half/full naked men, vile music and of course a cocktail or two). And all these this just made me fill unworthy of his presence; couldn’t even face up to go to church…
But in the last few days…whaw!! I was close to no money at all in my account (in fact I was in debt)… There are only two ways I have ever known (or trusted) when I am depressed…”run and hide, until the problem goes away” or “drink until I cant remember that I had a problem in the first place”. Both these methods I stupid cause at the end of the day the prob is still there. Anyway, I choose option two…which just meant I mad the problem worse.
But sometime this week my mum called and said I had received a letter from Tax and Revenue; she was already imagining the worst I was already close to tears cause its rarely good news when they contact you.
Anyway the letter said they had done recalculations of my 2010/11 taxes and they actually owed me money; the check would follow. I went to the closest ATM so I could celebrate I guess… But as I checked how much I was going to owe, my credit was back in the positive; turns out I still had one more installment from student finance. And last night as I just looked back to what had happened all week; it just seems God never left me, even if I did.
Now here is the crazy part, everyone who went up on that stage seemed to have a word linked to me directly. I kept hearing God say I am chiseling that away… Your anger! Your laziness! Your fear! Worry…everything! I think I must have asked this “what if there is just a little lump left?” because his response was its fine as long as that little lump of clay is a reflection of me.
All I can say in this moment is the Lord is good! His faithful! And never, he will never ever forsake you… He has got you best interest at heart, just trust him to lead you in the right way :)
Dare I say I have no idea way I am writing all this. But its a new beginning for me and my blog (we going personal)… and I just pray that whatever I write here is not for my own benefit but helps someone else in the same situation.
Be blessed. x
When I went left, you told me to go right…
I want to be God’s original masterpiece!!! (the way he intended)
I am ready for you to chisel away God…
